Sex Cam Taught Me about More than Pleasure
It’s been a year since I’ve started doing live-stream in sex.cam. My daily routine is very busy; I sleep late, frequently clean my room, do live-stream shows, and expose myself.
Sex work has always been interesting to me. When I became an adult, I flashed my tits at a party. That was thrilling. After that, I had an extreme urge to flash my body – and seduce the horny guys publicly.
People always praise looking at my body – well, why not? I had noticed that when you’ve got a good body, you become the desire of everyone.
Back then, I was the girl who always needed attention. I didn’t know much about pleasure. One day, I decided to have sex. However, that was not much interesting to me.
During my college days, I tried to hook up with many guys. Also, I wanted to make it my income source. But that didn’t go well.
So, I decided to sign up on the sugar daddy website. There, I met a lot of sugar daddies – who could pay me a sufficient amount. But, I enjoyed myself a lot with one person. He gave me everything I want.
Later, I didn’t feel much pleasure meeting with a sugar daddy. There was no happiness in this job. Yet, I wanted to earn money with my body.
One day, my friend suggested the webcam. She asked, “Are you aware of sex cam?” I had only one answer – a big NO!
The reason she asked me was because she was also working as a sex cam girl. My friend was earning enough money to fulfill her desires. After hearing that much, it was unquestionable for me to sign up in sex.cam – one of the popular webcam services in the present context. For many days, I researched a lot about webcams. I viewed shows of top cam girls on the website.
Even though I had an urge to flash, it wasn’t easy to open up publicly. Sex cam wasn’t like what I supposed. Through sex empowerment, a woman can arrange her needs; I heard that. But the webcam didn’t empower me. During public shows, I earned little money, so I had to switch to private cam. And the funny thing was; people asked me to do strange things for them. Sometimes, I couldn’t fulfill their request, and I had to end the show.
From the awkward requests, I learned a few things, such as:
- Switching to dim light
- Sing songs
- Show boobs
- Lick them with my mouth
- Bring exotic sex toys
- Put it in my mouth
- Use it while moaning
All of these things were like the menu list of the restaurant. I set the price range for a separate type of show. My prices were fair and affordable for everyone, so I started earning more money within a month.
Daily, I performed in a sex cam, showing up a number of sex toys, sucking them as per the viewers’ demand. I worked a lot to build a room. Slowly, my fan base expanded – which made me a demanding sex cam girl.
And the happiness doubled when the website featured me as one of the top cam girls. I didn’t work as a sex worker but had sexual empowerment through my body. Not only it became the source of income, but also I had a sense of value in myself.
Talking about fucking online is much interesting for me. I get more pleasure, sensual touch when I meet new people and masturbate for them. This gives me a sense of satisfaction. As a cam girl, I’ve done more than a thousand shows, but I never got tired of fucking online.
During the whole night, I have multiple orgasms. Masturbation and longer sexual stimulation provide multiple orgasms within a few minutes.
However, fucking off-line doesn’t give pleasure to me. I feel disinterested in craving for off-line sex. There is no orgasm while doing it. Not a single time, I feel orgasm while having off-line sex.
Online fucking and offline fucking, are totally different things. I don’t have a boyfriend yet, but I will surely have one in the future. When you have sex with your boyfriend, you won’t feel orgasms. It can disturb your sexual life.
So, I asked few questions related to these things with my friend.
She explained that you need to separate work and private life. Enjoying online sex is for earning, and getting pleasure with your boyfriend is for happiness, she said. She added, if achieving orgasm while off-line sex becomes difficult, you should ask your partner to play with your clitoris – and the G-spot.
Speaking further, as a cam girl, I have to hide my personal life while showing up my face on the camera. I can’t tell my viewers what I’ve been doing if I am suffering from any problem – or other things. Probably, they will listen to me, but after that, my value as a top sex cam girl will fade away.
Well, it’s tough to hide your sadness and smile in the camera. Nobody knows through what condition you’re going through. But, it’s the duty of a cam girl. She can’t show her emotions, cry out – instead, she has to moan playing with a bunch of sex toys.
Another thing is that you can’t tell what you’re doing.
For example, you have to hide your work from your friends and family. Generally, camming isn’t accepted in a well-respected family. Even though you’re adult – and free, your parents want you to do a respectable job. Your friends laugh when you expose yourself.
Luckily, things feel deeper when you know that your own friend masturbates while seeing your live cam. It feels awkward when they laugh outside and become dirty inside. You feel happy to know that you’re popular with your friends, too. Frankly speaking, I knew my friends are jerking off when I go live. But they don’t tell me about these things, though!
Camming always helped me to tackle sexual distress – which I experienced during my childhood days. I always had difficulty tackling the problems, which disturbed me a lot. Since I’ve started doing sex cam, I’ve forgotten a lot of things. It has given me a sense of security, steady income, and sexual freedom. I don’t need anybody to please me, and I meet new people every day who teach me new things. They’re also happy with me, so why do I need to go out and ask for sex?